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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

326posting

today..

whOo..

8am lesson..

i 8am still at hme..

walked in clz 840am..

walked out at 850am to pass Yinzhi key.

den sleep..

haha!~

oh ya..

well..

i had a strange dream ystrday nite..

u ppl might think..

aiyah..

juz dream of CAT!!

so wats de big deal...

haha!!

here comes de deal..

as u ppl know..

i am a bit ki siao kind of person..

basically the dream started with me going hme..

and i came out of my lift..

6th level..

den i saw this cat that looks veri friendly..

so i turned ard and waved and said Hi to the cat..

and the most happening thing come!!!

THE CAT WAVED BACK AT ME AND SAID HI ALSO!!!

oh my gosh!!!~

i was stunned..

but after awhile i get back to reality (in dream)

den start chatting with the cat as i walked dwn the corridor..

and i went hme..

and bid goodbye to the cat..

den when i step into the living room...

my dad was tellin my mum the same encounter he had..

and my mum dun believe it.

and i told my mum that i talked to that cat oso!!!~

den the next thing i know..

i gonna be late fer lesson le..

in my dream..

i find it so coOL~!!!

but..

when i wake up..

and think abt it..

i kind of freak out..

coz the dream is so real..

haha!!~

coOL leh..

a cat that can communicate with u..

but it gonna freak u out oso la..

haha!!!

den lesson all the way la..

den went to CO rm after lesson.

bought beancurd fer leng..

den start playin Harvest Moon again.

duHx..

shall start playin it when holiday starts..

but will play usin my PS!!

yeahyeah!!~

hahaha!!!~

den while playing..

Desmond, Yinzhi, Chaoyong, Samuel..

they ganged up together to bully me..

pour all de marbles into my jacket's hood..

den start pushing my head..

treating it as a basketball..

wat bounce ball..

aiming!!

kaoz..

den use dizi to block my view..

and last of all..

used whiteboard marker to draw on my facE!!!~

damn...
den went makan with Desmond, Yinzhi, Chaoyong @ clementi..

den received Mr Ng's call..

this Sat gonna go fer CO prac..

frm 230pm to 530pm..

coz gt performance next satuday..

diAOz..

meaning i cant go fer Evelyn's bday chalet..

sorry evelyn..

den think this sat will be going there alone..

haiz...

sian 1/2

whatever..

den here i am blogging..

and i have nt yet touch my notes..

tml gt PI test..

duhx...

deep in my heart..

i am veri veri sad..

partly becoz i have nt went for a single sectional practice since sch start..

i mean attend a proper 1..

prac all the way kind..

i felt so so so sad..

why muz everything happen on Wednesday afternoon?!

i hate it..

haiz..

and oso of somethings..

i juz keep remembering those things..

when am i realli able to forget..

i duno..

haiz..

or maybe coz i am still pinnin on some impossible hopes..

haiz..

i hate it....

i might look as if i am super duper okaY..

but deEp in my heart..

i knew i wasnt....

*crapz*

=>326posting<=
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8/30/2005 11:52:00 PM
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Monday, August 29, 2005

325 posting

did nth much on sunday..

went church and BS..

den go hme..

but ystrday is a happy day~

heehee!!

coz is our 1mth anniversary!

haha!!!~

me n Leng 1 mth woR!..

=X..

haha!!

siaoSiaO!

lalalala!!~

dun get it wrong.

we are nt lesbians la..

juz wanna have a special day la~

haha!!~

den today..

went to sch.

was later..

830am den reach..

den never go PI..

regretted..

coz after i skipped..

den i realise tis wednesday quiz!!

kaoz..

suan le..

self study la..

tml den ask ard..

den went to CO rm..

all thankz to Yinzhi..

make me addicted to Harvest Moon la..

wah lauz!!

den basically playin the whole day..

den after that went fer rehearsal..

so stupid rehearsal..

den that Felix..

did somemore stupid things..

wah lauz..

he was @ choir..

den he shouted my name into the mike..

den everybody turn and look at me..

subsequently whenever i walked past..

the whole choir will keep calling my name..

so malu u know?~

haiz...

den went back CO side..

keep complaining away la..

whatever.

den went Clementi makan with Peile, Samuel, Mayfen, Jonathan, Hanson..

den went hme..

here i am la...

tired..

go bath first..

bye bloggie!!

//i still cant forget him...

what can i do?!//

=>325 posting<=
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8/29/2005 09:21:00 PM
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

saturday

nth much to elaborate on today's mtg..

all i can say is..

i am totally disappointed...

not cox of the hurting words..

but of the attitudes..

went chinatown

makan..

with Leng, Angel, Yingqi, Zhiguan, Bowei, Peile..

nth much..

talk abt things..

dunwan elaborate..

ya..

blogs..

watever..

bye..

=>saturday<=
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8/28/2005 01:45:00 AM
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Saturday, August 27, 2005

thursday..friday...

did nt much ystrday...

oso forget wat i did..

met Engine in CO rm..

den go make-up cell grp..

had 2 tests la..

1st test..

late fer 15mins..

anyhw do..

coz i never study..

for microbio..

studied during break lo..

den had de quiz..

den quite pissed with somethings..

but suan le..

there goes my day..

today wake up late..

was late meeting Justin to pass guitar to him..

was pissed once again with the attitude of ppl..

why they jux cant listen to instruction and wanna bargain..

haiz..

suan le..

another 1 more semester and i will be gone..

den had rehearsal.

so boring..

bo liaoz..

den went back CO rm..

waited fer Chaoyong to come..

den we head off to Redhill market fer makan..

sit until 1030pm den go off..

reach hme..

called Leng to accompany her home..

den talked to her fer damn long..

almost 2hours plus?!

hahaha!!~

ya..

den juz nw Xiuping msg me in msn..

telling me..

"no matter what is the outcome the mtg will be tml..

hope that we can still be the same as last time.."

i am really touched by tat..

in my heart..

at least i know i will nt lose her as a fren after the mtg..

coz i am nw actually preparing my heart to lose them after the mtg..

but thankz..

and nw i mux be strong..

coz i am never weak..

argh..

den nw my kneecap pain again..

freak la..

damn bloody pain..

whole leg majiam numbed liydat..

haiz...

watever....

bye bloggie...

=>thursday..friday...<=
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8/27/2005 02:51:00 AM
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Thursday, August 25, 2005

wednesday

overslpt today..

lesson at 10am..

wake up at 11am..

duhx..

haiz..

den go sch la..

went CO rm..

den rotx..

go makan.

den go sectional.

den go quiz..

den back again fer sectional..

after tat went Holland V celebrate Des's bday lo..

coz combined prac is cancelled..

had fun there..

alot of funny things happen..

haha!

but i feel so bad..

coz i played with the toy car that Yinzhi they all bought fer him...

and i "langa" it la..

duhx..

gt a bit of scratch on it..

felt so bad..

haiz..

sorry la..

dun scold me...

den went hme first...

coz wanna study fer test..

but in de end no mood..

haha!

so anyway...

left with Samuel den go MRT station..

chatted with him lo..

den he talked until dunwan alight at clementi..

haha!!

in de end he accompany me till boonlay...

haha!

so funny la..

*miss 1thousand...

hahaha!!!

dun worry..

if he gonna bully u..

i'll scold him fer u de*

den waited fer bus..

halfway my dad called..

haiz..

these few nitex my mum n dad have been calling me..

coz i am hme quite late..

meaning after 8pm kind..

and they are worried..

all thanks to the low level of security at my area..

duno what is wrong lo..

so stupid...

live here fer 15yrs le.

nv once i heard so many cases of "bian tai kuang" and thief lo..

duhx...

den reach hme..

online...

den was chatting with Nicholas..

den he told me lots of things..

but think all those things he said...

will still nt make any difference ba..

coz like wat i said before..

"i love the person for who the person is..

i dont wan the person to change juz for me..

but for himself ba..

if that person is to change juz for me...

i will be gan dong..

but i will not love the person as much as i had before..

coz it was the old him that i love..

and not the new one.."

ya..

den had a bath..

den here i am blogging..

haha!

gonna go study a bit..

if nt..

fail again.

haiz..

can bang wall la..

den tml 2 quizzes...

sian 1/2...

didnt study fer today's BINSAN..

den anyhw answer all de way..

tml is POLYMER SCIENCE and MICROBIOLOGY..

cant afford to fail microbio le..

haha!!

den juz nw Leng told me she goin ITP starting 3rd OCT..

at Singtel..

den most prob doin shift work..

so sad..

haha!!

nvm..

this sunday...

28th Aug..

our dayz~ haha!!

siao le..

bye bloggie..

muacks!

=>wednesday<=
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8/25/2005 12:38:00 AM
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

tuesday

today..
went for GEMS..
made bookmarks..
diAoz..
haha!!!
long story..
but nvm..
haha~
after tat went to CO rm..
start doing my BIA report..
skipped microbio...
den in CO rm..
do report..
den after that go polymer science tutorial..
den BIA lecture..
duno why suddenly so guai..
listenin to lesson..
but until 2nd half of BIA..
i slp le.
realli too tired..
coz ystrday nite talk on the phone with Engine-niang fer 1hour32mins!!!
den after tat went CO rm rotx...
so hunry..
den nobody wanna go eat with me..
sian..
den after tat Peile came and accompany me go KFC makan..
den rotx in CO rm again.
den Peile keep askin me go hme..

in de end she went off first..

sorry...

coz i need to lock co rm la..

den went hme..

here am i bloggin again..

bye bloggie...

P/S:- HAPPY BIRTHDAY

DESMOND TAN ZHI WEI!...

=>tuesday<=
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8/23/2005 11:16:00 PM
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linkin park

"Numb"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

=>linkin park<=
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8/23/2005 10:43:00 AM
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Monday, August 22, 2005

monday..

today..

did nth much.

had lesson..

haha..

today morning..

Leng greeted me Good Morning lo..

so long since someone greeted me that..

felt so happy..

shes de second one wor~

never had anyone greet me morning before sia...

haha!!~

realli made my day..

had a fun day..

aha!

went FC 6 makan with Leng..

talk lots abt Superstar..

wanna complain!!!

today that Ye Yin Zhi...

WhAt tHe HeCK!

he HIT MY BUTT!!!

WANG BA DAN!!!~

yeah!

i revenge by kicking his!

lalalalala!!!

den went hme at ard 7pm...

den here i am bloggin..

boring..

bye!

=>monday..<=
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8/22/2005 10:33:00 PM
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Sunday, August 21, 2005

postings..

saturday..

went to JP with Peile.

was veri late meeting fer..

30mins late..

sorry..

den walked ard...

saw this pair of shoe..

wanna buy~ yeaP~

den after that go meet Leng, Lihua, Xiuping fer the dinner..

with Lifearts ppl..

kind of boring..

went hme earli..

ard 11den left le....

coz mummy keep calling..

ask me go hme earli..

coz my hse here gt "bian tai kuang" and thief..

wah lauz..

sian 1/2....

den reach hme ard 12midnite la..

den so sian..

online again lo..

did nth much..

sunday...

went church..

and i injured myself..

kaoz..

was ironin my clothes..

den i duno why..

put my hand there..

den de iron burn my finger..

den i still nv react..

duhx..

a bit slow la..

but onli juz a small scar..

but veri pain leh..

haiz..

watever la..

den service today preached by Sy Rogers..

he is really funny..

he might act like gu niang..

but cant blame him..

coz of his past..

haiz..

den after service went for BS with Baihui at NUS..

cooL..

in a lecture hall..

veri tired la..

almost fell aslp...

den went to JP buy sushi..

den go hme..

den my laptop keep givin me problem...

restart 1 time make me waste 1hr..

lame lo..

den watched Superstar..

my daddi help me record today..

well..

after watchin..

i am disappointed..

coz Kelly realli lost standard..

and is a pity that Xinhui never win..

haiz..

Xinhui gt real powerful voice..

and her stage performance is realli great..

and i start to kind of like her voice le..

ya..

haha!!

watevr..

den nw Desmond Tan Zhi Wei say he HATE me...

coz i cant go celebrate his bday with them all on wed...

coz i gt 2tests on the next day..

haiz...

i realli wanna go..

buut..

BEDOK LEH!!!

FAR u KNOw?~

haiz........

i still miss him..

damn.

haiz..

weakling..

i am 1..

suan le...

=>postings..<=
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Saturday, August 20, 2005

zhi lianz

thats angeline, xingzuan, me, lingling...
at backstage on 15aug 05 performance!~

below all my zhi lian foto...
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this is my hair! haha!! love it!!
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=>zhi lianz<=
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8/20/2005 02:36:00 PM
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Friday, August 19, 2005

friday.

today went fer microbio practical..

was so bloody boring!!!

anyway..

went to computer lab and finish up my ENVSTA and ITM report...

finally..

2down.. another 2 more to go..

boring..

and oso gt 1more case study and 1 more assignment..

gotta rush finish by this monday latest while waiting for JJ they all to finish lesson...

nw trying to waste my time in library..

duhx..

too bored...

nth to blog abt oso..

bye bloggie...

//2day suppose to our 1st mth... but nw.. no longer impt...//

=>friday.<=
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8/19/2005 05:36:00 PM
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315 posting.

wednesday..

went for CO prac..

den went hme..

nth much oso..

well..

made a sandwich fer leng..

haha!!

ya..

today..

end lesson earli.

had clz outing to swenson..

was thinkin dunwan go..

coz was kind of sad..

coz they FORGET to inform me abt it..

so sad..

haiz..

cant blame them oso..

coz alot of days they nv see me..

if nt de see me this moment..

and i am gone the next..

but anyway..

went for it..

had fun..

ate 5 scoops of icecream..

den went back sch..

veri tired..

fell aslp in co rm..

den Yinzhi n Desmond came back..

i started watching Sin City..

erh..

nt as nice as i have thought..

quite a few X-rated scene...

and oso alot of gross scene..

and there is this guy who is so scary..

no matter hw u shoot, hit, bang..

he will nt die de..

watched fer 1 hr..

den Chaoyong n Yinzhi start to disturb me..

and the fights start again..

den rot ard in co rm..

playing lame games..

den went Clementi makan..

Mayfen went hme first..

den left me Chaoyong n Yinzhi...

den we chit chat agian..

but basically is again..

"bully vic time"..

duHx..

all de way..

i am abuseD!!!

pinched, snapped, hammered, knuckled, hitted...

wah lauz..

haha!

den even make me missed a train..

again..

we 3 had fight again at train station..

-_-"

den after that i went hme..

den nw hme..

quite long le..

saw superstar result..

not much feelings..

if Xinhui to win,

i have no complains.

coz she realli have the voice..

so does Weilian..

but still..

i personally prefer Kelly n Junyang..

but in de end..

Kelly n Weilian won..

personally..

i think the ultimate superstar is somehw or rather out le lo..

Kelly will definately win him...

coz she have the skills, techniques, and the most impt is she can see.

and she is able to communicate with de audience thru eye contact while singing..

this is something whereby Weilian cant..

but the ultimate result still depends on the rest le..

ya..

nth much..

gtg bye...

love u lotx bloggie...

=>315 posting.<=
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8/19/2005 02:11:00 AM
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

tues...

didnt blog ystrday nite..

coz too tired..

basically ystrday whole day busy with the Lifearts performance..

dunwanna talk abt it..

nthmuch too..

as for today..

had lessons..

was feelin rather lethargic..

den skipped de 12noon lesson..

was outside CO rm with Jolyn...

den Samuel came...

i received an sms that lead me to scold n scold....

talked to Samuel..

and get some of my pts to him..

duno if he understand what i mean..

but..

i am realli pissed le..

i tried all means..

but this is what i gt..

if u are out there juz to make my life difficult...

den SCRAM!!

coz u can nv succeeD!!

i maybe weak in relationship problems..

but i can be as heartless as u are!

I CAN JUST TREAT AS IF I HAD NEVER HAVE U AS MY FREN BEFORE!!

coz of being de President..

i lost almost everything..

if this is what u wan..

YES U SUCCEEDED!!!

but so?!!

thru this i oso realise that all the so called FRIENDSHIPS are never REAL!!

i will juz treat everything as a lesson...

price are to be paid for lessons!!!

and i have paid it!

so SCRAM!!

after that went for lesson...

den went back CO rm...

went to makan at Bedok today..

with Leng, Jolyn, Chaoyong, Jonathan, Mayfern..

den after that go hme alone..

was on de phone with Leng juz nw..

felt veri guilty towards her..

coz makin her in such difficult position..

once again trapped in between 2 parties..

sorry...

i realli cant take all this anymore..

i will burst anytime..

dun be surprise if one day i gonna burst infront..

coz i am a human too..

i do have feelings..

ya...

bloggie..

i felt so helpless nw...

on one hand i felt so depressed, useless abt everything..

feeling so naive...

thinking that everthing is over after a few days..

thinking that the frenship is nt as weak as it is actually..

on the other..

i felt so pissed..

i felt so frustrated with his doings..

why cant he juz grow up?!!

why is that those that i always thought will stand by me doin all these to me instead...

i realli dun understand..

i am veri "luan"..

veri veri....

when is all these gonna end?!

or rather..

will there be an endin...

when i was about to move on with life..

things start crashing hard on me again..

why...

why mux u choose to leave me durin my most difficult times....

sorry.....

i still miss u...

=>tues...<=
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8/16/2005 10:29:00 PM
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s club 7

Have You Ever...

Sometimes
It's wrong to walk away
Though you think it's over
Knowing there's
So much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams
Are upside down
And you just
Want to change the way
The world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved
And lost somebody
Wished there was a chance
To say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way
I feel about you and me
Have you ever
Felt your heart
Was breaking?
Looking down the road
You should be taking
I should know
'Cause I loved and
Lost the day
I let you go

Can't help but think
That this is wrong
We should be together
Back in your arms
Where I belong
Now I finally realise
It was forever
That I found
I'd give it all to
Change the way
The world goes round

Tell me
Have you ever loved
And lost somebody
Wished there was
A chance to say
I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way
I feel about
You and me, baby
Have you ever
Felt your heart
Was breaking?
Looking down the road
You should be taking
I should know
(I should know)
'Cause I loved and
Lost the day
I let you go

I really want to
Hear you say
That you know
Just how it feels
To have it all and
Let it slip away
Can't you see
I know the moment's gone
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could
Change the way
The world goes round

Tell me
Have you ever loved
And lost somebody
Wished there was
A chance to say
I'm sorry
Can't you see
(Oh)
That's the way
I feel about
You and me, baby
Have you ever
Felt your heart
Was breaking?
Looking down the road
You should be taking
I should know
(I should know)
'Cause I loved and
Lost the day I let
Yes I loved and
Lost the day I let
Yes I loved and
Lost the day
I let you go

=>s club 7<=
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8/16/2005 10:27:00 PM
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Sunday, August 14, 2005

High High High

HIGH HIGH HIGH

Dancing tonight 跟着音乐在摇摆
我的心跳加快　
看到你走过来
你问我说“我们是否见过？”
我很想说有　
可是我说没有
“你是我一见就爱上的人”
你说的话让我越陷越深
我有点怕　
你的爱情不真
'Ya makin' me hot
怎么教我忍

Oh 你的 Love Love Love
让我爱又不敢爱
怎么做　
怎么说　
我不愿受伤害
High High, into the Sky
你的爱让我的心 High 起来　
把我心窗打开

Crazy tonight 今晚心情那么坏
实在是想不开　
你看我心不在
我对你说
“我不愿意再犯错”
如果不能有　
那就不要有
“你是我一见就爱上的人”
你说的话似乎有点天真
我真的怕　
失去爱的分寸
'Ya makin' me hot
怎么教我忍

Oh 你的 Love Love Love
让我爱又更想爱
怎么做　
怎么说　
我不愿受伤害
High High, into the Sky
你的爱给我翅膀飞起来　
飞过寂寞的海

**RAP**
High, High, High
你让我越来越 High, High, High
你让我爱的越 High, High, High
你让我更想跟你 Urm, Urm, Urm
Ah 可是你，
阿妹你的热情让我爱的过火
每个男人看到你都想要接近你
你就像一个超级辣的太后
你的美丽让我需要急救

=>High High High<=
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8/14/2005 10:07:00 PM
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sunday

nth much today..

went for prac today..

basically feeling physically n mentally veri tired..

pissed with my sucky attitude..

watever..

went to return dance Studio key..

and on de way back..

hit my right leg hard onto a chair..

damn!!

and nw de blueblack is so so so daRK!!

scary...

haiz..

didnt know de impact is so big....

haiz..

den a bit swollen!!!..

damn damn damn..

anyway..

ya.. like wat i said..

had prac today..

was kind of irritating la..

coz i keep singing de song "High High High" again...

lame hor..

haha!

den de Peile bth..

keep pinchin me!!

hahaha!!

den did nth much today oso..

onli go clementi makan..

den come hme le...

i think i shld stop myself from steppin into his life..

or rather cares so much abt his life..

it have nth to do with me anymore..

suddenly have the thought...

perhaps he was juz trying to get me off his life..

and so everythings turns out to be liydat..

maybe i think too much..

i duno..

sorry if i think too much..

i am weak..

i am nt wat u ppl always think i am..

i do have feelings..

i am nt like a robot..

i have feelings..

when i was about to piece up my broken bits n pieces of my heart...

it juz breaks again...

i am trying so hard to pick up the broken bits of me..

and yet...

it juz breaks again...

hw i wish u will never appear in front of me again..

and yet..

i am still wishing to see u.

kind of contradicting hor..

haha!..

suan le..

i am mad...

bye bloggie..

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I'm Waiting For You 　

Waiting For You　

Kiss Me At Tonight 　

为何你　

Cinderella　

留给我一望无际的思念　

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I'm Waiting For You 　

Waiting For You　

Come Here To My Dream 　

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一直到黑发变成了银线

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=>sunday<=
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8/14/2005 07:38:00 PM
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